It’s been a while since I posted which is a combination of being busy, and being in a bit of a funk. I’m super frustrated with how difficult it is to get gear that works for me, the wetsuit that I have will kind of work but isn’t at all optimal since it’s a warm water wetsuit and not a tri suit meant for swimming – there is one triathlon wetsuit that we think might fit me, I ordered it to try it out but it’s been on backorder and may not be here for another month. As much as I love Clyde the mountain bike, getting a road bike that works for me has been an ongoing bikemare that is, fingers crossed, ending soon (blog to follow!)
A friend of mine who runs for fun said “I get such great stress reliefs from the couple of runs I do each week, all these workouts you’re doing must have you completely de-stressed.” That would be nice, but it’s not my current reality. For me it’s feeling pretty stressful to be 5 months away from my IM 70.3 and still not have basic gear, or any time at all logged on a road bike. My swimming is completely on track in the pool, and I’m scheduled for an open water class this weekend that will let me know where I am in the water. My running never seems fast enough and part of it depends on how long it takes me to complete the bike (whether or not I’m able to ‘buy myself extra time for the run) and while i know that I can do a high cadence for a long time with no problems on a spin bike, I don’t know at all how that translates to actual cycling on the road so that’s a whole other thing.
As I whine to friends about this they very kindly remind me that I have time, and that even if I don’t finish the 70.3 I still have a year and a half until the full IM. That is true, and I don’t fear failure, but I do hate failing, and I do want success. I want to cross the finish line of this 70.3 and I still absolutely believe that I can do it.
So I’m acknowledging that this journey has its ups and downs physically and mentally, and I’m keeping my head down, completing my workouts, and trying to keep my focus on the stuff I can control, and stay positive (not like “I’m positive that I hate running” either, the real kind of positive!)
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