I often work out late at night. It works best with my schedule, it mimics the conditions that I’ll have for the run at my IRONMAN, and it helps me avoid the sun which cuts down on the constant burn/peel cycles that keep my dermatologist up at night. One of the best things about working out late at night near the beach is the late night beginners.
These are the people who bring their skateboards, roller blades, roller skates, and hover boards to the beach, and learn how to use them at one o’clock in the morning.
Because I ride a looped course, I often get the privilege of seeing people trying one of these things for the very first time, then a couple more times as they progress, and then a few hours later when they’ve got themselves going and gained some skill and confidence (and generally look less terrified and at least a little more like they are having fun.)
I rarely initiate a conversation with any of them because I don’t know that my comments would be welcome, and I know that they aren’t out there to be my inspiration. So even though it feels like we may be kindred spirits, I keep my thoughts to myself so as not to be an asshole.
What I do know is that less than a year ago, I couldn’t stop my bike without falling down, and I was scared of everything from tiny puddles to textured pavement. I remember the fear of wrecking the bike, the fear of hurting myself miles from my car, and the fear of being mocked. All of those things have happened, some more than once, and I now know that the actual experiences weren’t nearly as bad as the fear of them.
I once heard someone say (and I wish I could remember who) that fear and worry are worse than the worst thing that can actually happen, because fear and worry are an abyss – a hole with no bottom. It’s that abyss that the late night beginners have found a way to be brave enough to cross, and that is super inspiring to me.
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