I’ve done most of my workouts for this IM at night. There are lots of reasons for this – it avoids the sun (I’m prone to blistering sunburn even with sunscreen,) it’s cooler, and I’m a natural night owl so I do my best workouts at night.
But we’ve reached the time in my training when I need to be working out in the mornings to get used to waking up and working out early, and to get used to biking in the sun (which I’ll be doing a lot of since I’ll basically be biking all damn day.)
So I woke up at 6am yesterday and stumbled through my routine to get ready for my long bike ride (the fact that I’ve developed a technique to make sure that I get the aquaphor on all of my lady bits regardless of how tired I am is both comforting and disturbing.) I am really, really not a morning person, and I had not slept well as I was tossing and turning thinking about the bike ride I had to do.
Let’s start with the bad news. I was really slow. Slower than I normally am, slower than I was before I got sick, slower than I’ve been when I was doing these rides early in the sun earlier this year, slower than I was last week. Far slower than I need to be to get through the IM. Slow. I’m not sure why. I didn’t even feel particularly tired after I got done, I just felt like I didn’t have any energy or strength during the ride, and while my speed was low my heart rate was pretty high. Maybe it was lack of sleep, or working out in the sun, or I need different nutrition/hydration, or maybe it was just a bad day.
Now the good things:
Last week was my first long bike ride after missing a bunch of workouts while I was sick. It was really painful, everything hurt! This week, felt much better.
I didn’t quit. Doing these workouts is difficult enough but when I am consistently way behind the times I expect (and need) they can be frustrating and depressing and the urge to quit can become overwhelming. I desperately wanted to quit less than a third of the way through the ride but I just kept pushing and I finished it out and I’m proud of that. All I can do is keep working!
What’s inspiring me today:
Julianne and I were watching an incredibly cheesy television show about gymnastics and this song came on. As usual, my cheesy inspirational music game is strong and I want to share that with y’all:
THE FAT ACTIVISM CONFERENCE:
TOOLS FOR THE REVOLUTION!
This year we have a kick ass line up of speakers including some super cool fathletes and other speakers talking about everything from “Re-Imagining Fashion from an Inclusive Framework” to “Activism for the Introverted and Anxious” to “Building Fat Patient Power While Accessing Healthcare” and more. This is a virtual conference so you can listen by phone or computer wherever you are, and you’ll receive recordings and transcripts of each talk so that you can listen/read on your own schedule. We also offer a pay what you can afford option to make the conference accessible to everyone. The Conference will be held September 23-25, 2016
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